Wake-up, kiss the little dog on her head, pee, shuffle downstairs, grab little dog's leash (it's kinda dark outside and there might be critters lurking), turn on the coffee maker with leash in hand, drink some water with leash in hand, rinse yesterday's coffee cup with leash in hand, check my phone with leash in hand, notice the little dog with a full bladder who's waiting for the leash in my hand. Oh. Right.
"Let's go pee Little Dog."
This 5:00am scatter-brained sequence isn't something strictly devoted to just 5:00am. It's not my "morning brain." It's my all day brain. I can recall a day when my boyfriend/manfriend, who will be known as "Lovie" from here on out, had to stop me from pacing around the house completing forgotten chores with ONE SHOE ON. I had the other shoe in my hand with full intention of putting it on, but didnt'. Instead, I went about completing said chores while juggling this second shoe.
Lovie: "Babe. Stop. What are you doing?"
"Why don't you put your other shoe on...?"
"Yeah, that might be easier."
I am a pinball and my life is the machine. I bounce from one thing to the next, sometimes in the matter of seconds. I'd like to say that this only happens during the day, but I'm known for waking up several times throughout the night, needing to change rooms, write verse, paint, complete a task, etc. Sitting, writing this blog post is a true test of focus for me. My body feels antsy, my brain wanders, and I'm ready to switch gears. I'm always eager to get back to my original task, and often do, even quickly sometimes, but I MUST wander. It's my DNA. It's who I am.
Friends often tell me, "you should try meditation." And I DO meditate, believe it or not. But I can't do the sit 'n OM kind of meditating. I mean, I can, but it's wicked hard and leaves me feeling frustrated, like I've wasted my time. Whatever. I can meditate like a champ though if there's a ton going on around me. I've meditated in coffee shops, city streets, outside in a blizzard (yup, really).
So, you may be wondering, "how the hell do you get any painting done?" I most often paint to podcasts, Netflix, audio books, or really loud music. I need to overstuff my senses so I can focus. I had to doodle in school in order to focus, and when the teacher(s) got pissed at me for "not paying attention," I had a hard time defending myself. Oh well, being a kid is challenging. Good thing we get to turn into adults.
I recently read an article about how messy people tend to be more creative (who's got two thumbs and is messy? THIS GIRL!). So, I wondered, are scatter-brained people more creative, too? Perhaps. What do you think? Are you scatter-brained as well? Are you creative? How do you focus?
On a seperate note, what are your favorite podcasts or audio books? Do you drink coffee? Did you remember to let your dog out?
Oh, my coffee! I'm gonna go drink that now...